Psalm 66

In my Bible reading last week, I encountered Psalm 66 and decided to camp out there until we get the results from this IVF cycle. I’ve been re-reading it every day, and it’s been helping me to maintain trust in God as I wait. Here are some excerpts and reflections:

Shout for joy to God, all the earth;
sing the glory of his name;
give to him glorious praise!
Say to God, “How awesome are your deeds!
So great is your power that your enemies come cringing to you.
All the earth worship you
and sings praises to you;
they sing praises to your name.”

God is glorious, and all the earth praises his name. “All the earth” includes me, whether this IVF succeeds or not, and “all the earth” includes our embryos, tiny beings whose microscopic cells magnify their Creator. God’s power is great. My enemies as I try to conceive are his enemies: sin, sickness, sorrow and death. His enemies cringe before his power. Sin, sickness, sorrow and death cannot ultimately triumph over me, even if these embryos don’t survive.

Come and see what God has done:
he is awesome in his deeds toward the children of man.

I want, whatever the results this week brings, to call others to come and see what God has done for me. I’m praying that I would get to see his awesome deeds toward my children, in bestowing and sustaining life through this IVF. But if that’s not how he chooses to work at this time, I can still draw attention to his work in my life, giving me contentment and peace even in the midst of suffering.

Bless our God, O peoples;
let the sound of his praise be heard,
who has kept our soul among the living
and has not let our feet slip.
For you, O God, have tested us;
you have tried us as silver is tried.
You brought us into the net;
you laid a crushing burden on our backs;
you let men ride over our heads;
we went through fire and through water;
yet you have brought us out to a place of abundance.

Throughout these four-and-a-half years of infertility, God’s hand has been active. He sent the test, but he has not let me fall and he has sustained life in my soul. When I feel like infertility might crush me, like I might burn or drown in the hardship of it, it brings rest to know that God is in control of this trial and that he will preserve me. Not only will he preserve me, but he will bring me into abundance. I pray that this IVF would yield an abundance of blessing in a child or in children, that he will have seen fit to keep at least one of our embryos’ souls among the living. But if I’m not pregnant, he has still brought me the abundant blessing of knowing my Savior better, of sharing in his sufferings.

If I had cherished iniquity in my heart,
the Lord would not have listened.
But truly God has listened;
he has attended to the voice of my prayer.
Blessed be God,
because he has not rejected my prayer
or removed his steadfast love from me!

God listens to my prayers. He listens to my prayers because of his Son. Because I trust in the death and resurrection of Jesus, God has given me a new heart – a heart where sin is still present but where sin has no final power. I can’t earn the ear of God, but my justification in Christ ensures that God attends to my voice when I pray. He has heard all of my prayers for children over the past five years, and he has heard my prayers for these three embryos over the past few weeks. I so hope that I will get a positive pregnancy test this week as tangible evidence that he has not rejected my prayer. But whether the results are negative or positive, I have confidence that God will never remove his steadfast love from me, because of my security in Christ.



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6 responses to “Psalm 66

  1. Alex and Jill

    Oh how I love the Psalms!!

    Thank you for sharing your heart…I always walk away with something to 'chew on' for myself. 🙂

    Praying for you guys!


  2. Mary Ruth

    Thank you for these reflections on that Psalm. The waiting is so hard; I am glad the Lord is sustaining you through these verses. You have been an encouragement to me!

  3. Anonymous

    Please, Lord…be knitting these embryos at this very moment…

  4. Stacey

    I'm hoping with you and for you!

  5. Amanda

    Thinking of you often while you wait…it's so good that you're hearing from Him in the midst of it all (& sharing it with us–thank you!)

  6. kcmarie122

    I'm praying for you! Thanks for sharing these! When do you find out? Hopefully the wait is going by fast for you….oh wait, what am I saying? 😉


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