I See Phelps’s 8 and Raise Him 1

That is, if I can set my nine* failed assisted reproduction cycles against his eight gold medals. It’s hard to say which accomplishment required more effort, endurance, and sacrifice.

Today’s results were negative, in case you didn’t catch that.

I’m disappointed and wondering what comes next, but still in faith for whatever the Lord has in store for us.

I read these words this morning before I left for the clinic, words that I want to be increasingly true of me, words that are being worked in me by God through this lingering trial of infertility:

“Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
(Psalm 73:25-26)
*ten, if you count the IUI that was converted to timed intercourse due to an insurance requirement being missed


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17 responses to “I See Phelps’s 8 and Raise Him 1

  1. lifemoreabundant

    I’m so sorry.

  2. Courtney

    The negative result days are always the worst. I’m so sorry. Big hugs.

  3. sarah k

    I’m sorry, dear friend. I am praying for you.

  4. GLouise

    I am so sorry, dear one.

  5. In Search of Morning Sickness

    Im sorry for the 9th negative, I really pray the Lord will give you guys direction as to what he wants as your next step.

  6. Anonymous

    the negative results … yes they truly are horrible.
    we’re all pulling for you and praying too.

    wiley womb

  7. Lauren

    I’m so sorry this one didn’t turn out like we all hoped. Kudos to you for making a funny joke about it though. What does Michael Phelps know about struggle, endurance, and perseverence?! He should talk to some of the women here!

  8. Vacant Uterus

    Sigh. I am so sorry, Andrea. I’ve been praying for you, as always. And I’ll keep on. Wish I was there to hug you and cook you up some cheesy popcorn. You have your hope in the right place but some cheesy popcorn helps.


  9. Amy

    I’m so, so sorry, Andrea.

  10. Faith

    I’m so sorry. Even though we know God doesn’t give us anything more than we can handle, negative results are the pits. Praying for you.

  11. Katie

    How in the world did you manage a funny post about such a painful thing?!!! Again, I think you should compile this stuff into a book about trusting the Lord through suffering. You are definitely a God-glorifying example!

  12. Infertile Friend

    I’m sorry. All we can do is pray that God will take care of us until he reveals His perfect timing to us. I can attest that its so hard to do when you are dissappointed.

  13. Dave & Beth Saavedra

    Oh, we are so sorry. We continue to lift you and Aaron up day by day.

  14. annikadurbin

    We’re praying for you all.

  15. jadunham

    No! I’m so sad for you. 😦 Why is this so hard?

  16. Anonymous

    Hi — I had Googled “lupron” and “itchy” and came across your site. I LOVE this entry! I’m on my first IVF (actually ZIFT) cycle after two failed IUI’s, my mother’s death, my cat’s death, moving across country, and starting a new business. And now my ZIFT is on the verge of cancellation. So browsing through your blog made me feel less alone — your courage and grace are amazing. Thank you for writing! I too have a blog, so if you like, please visit: http://the-spiral-life.blogspot.com/ Big hugs and best of luck to you…. e

  17. Jenelle

    Hi Andrea,

    I was going through the archives (I love your blog) and noticed you mentioned Psalm 73. This Psalm is my favorite and has brought me such comfort during this whole process. I will keep you in my prayers.

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