Meditation on Romans 5

Yesterday I wrote about preaching Romans 4* to myself. In Romans 5:1-5, I found promises of God that I can preach to myself until I am fully convinced that God is able to do them. These are the precious promises of justification, the blessings secured to me by the righteousness imputed to me by Christ. I have peace with God. I have hope in his glory, knowing that he will show himself supremely good no matter what happens. I can rejoice in suffering, even in infertility. God promises me endurance, character, hope, and love. By his Spirit, he has helped me to endure three years of infertility and all its disappointments. I trust that he will give me endurance for as many more years of suffering that lie ahead. He is producing character in me, teaching me to obey him in everything, to know and trust him, to bear fruit even under withering heat. Now I need hope – hope that my future will not be all trouble, hope that hope itself will not shame me. Within the online community of infertility, hope is often portrayed as foolish, weak, silly; the real infertility veterans wear a badge of cynicism, a shield meant to inure us against disappointment. There is a fear – a fear that I feel – that high hopes will make the fall that much harder. If I don’t hope that I might be pregnant, that next cycle starting won’t hurt so badly and faulty expectations won’t leave me feeling foolish. But hope won’t put me to shame. God promises! This is where I want to grow right now, in having enough faith to hope that God’s glory will be shown in my life, whether through a miraculous pregnancy or through ongoing trust despite deferred hope. Hope will not put me to shame, because I have assurance of God’s love, proven on the cross of Christ and shed on my heart by the Holy Spirit. With that assurance, may I not waver or distrust these heavenly promises.

*By the way, click here for someone else’s very helpful thoughts on the same verses in Romans 4.



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5 responses to “Meditation on Romans 5

  1. Fertilize Me

    I am working through those shields of skepticism and cynicism that you speak of. I am also working on my fears and anxiety. Thank you for this chapter. I read before but I re-read it online today and am glad! Thank you for blessing us

  2. Elaine

    Wow…as a veteran IF’er (been ttc for 4 1/2 years)I can say that that was one of the most inspirational posts I have ever read. Thanks for sharing your heart with us!

  3. gracechild

    God has honored the “foolish” things of this world that He may confound the “wise” men. We must never lose our “foolish” hope that God’s promises will come to pass in the 21st century

  4. Amy

    “Hope will not put me to shame…” These words are encouraging for me, too, even though my struggles are not the same as yours. Truly, friend, the Lord IS producing fruit through your suffering.

  5. Glenna Marshall

    That’s exactly it: we DO have hope in His promises, in HIM, however He handles our in/fertility. I’m learning that hope is not in cycles, but in Christ. Seems like such a simple lesson, but it has been a hard one to grasp.
    Good post!

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